I'm done with fancy titles lol
I know shame on me, I kinda did what I do with all sudden interest and that is drop them off as quick as I started them. However I really do want to do this. If not for venting, but for keeping myself to something. It's something I find really difficult to maintain and it's my fault. I drift off into another borderline manic level of interest within another task or hobby. BAD. Not good. I must change this.
Change is ever present and terrifying. Even done when it's of ones own volition. That change has consequences that I can never fathom, as I lack foresight to what will come. That was really bad in my early years, but has lessened with age. It does steer it's ugly head in when I least expect it however. Anxiety tag-teams on me with fear of change, and thus another fear sprouts from those. Fear of choice. The worst part? I must choose to change. It's hard.